In March 2015 I turned the big 5-0! Really? Fifth? Wow I made it to fifty. I just kept saying it over and over again. It just seems surreal. But to tell you the truth it has been easier to except and turn fifty then it was to turn forty. I just remember forty being a depressing time. I think it has to do more with what is going on in my life right now. It has me more excited about the future then before. You see I also just received my ministry credentials with the Assemblies of God. At forty I was just spinning my wheels and going nowhere.
Leading up to turning fifty was a little eerie. Let me explain. I will have to go back in time to when I was turning twenty-five. I was living life for myself at the time. I only thought of two things and these two things consumed my life. They were working and drinking. Nothing else mattered. I was a selfish, angry, and bitter individual. I had nothing to live for or to look forward to. I remember thinking to myself and saying to people that as I was turned twenty-five my life was half over. I knew if I kept going at this rate life would be short. I would be dead by time I turned fifty.
Then the Lord Jesus Christ would get a hold of me. I moved to Denver, Colorado and meet my wife Karen. Three years into our marriage we were baptized into the Holy Spirit. We came to know and grow in the Lord together. In Jesus Christ I became a new creation. He has worked on me and through me; He has given be hope and peace. But, that is for another story.
Back to turning fifty. Those words; I will be dead by the time I turn fifty would never go away. It was not something that haunted me, controlled me or disabled me but was always a lingering thought on my mind. Sometimes I think it was a reminder of where I was then and what the Lord has done for me since. Thank you Jesus! But the six months leading up to my birthday the thought would come more often. When I talked to Karen about it she would just dismiss it. She didn’t what anything to do with it. But still, it was just something that was stuck in my gut. It was a feeling that would not go away.
Then the day came, my birthday. During my quite time I would ask the Lord, that’s going too happened now? The Lord spoke to me that day and I rejoice in His words. Remember the back story; two days earlier there was a ceremony at our church (Hope Fellowship) were I received my ministry credentials. Here is what he said to me, your old life as a chef is dead and your new life as a pastor has just begun. Wow, Thank you Jesus!! Just the words I needed to hear to be set free. I had to breakout into my hallelujah dance. (Never to be seen by anybody) Since then I have had a new pep in my step and new anticipation and excitement for the future. All this because I serve a GOOD GOD!! Amen